Wednesday, 27 November 2013

Disconnected or Me without the internet

For about a whole week I was completely isolated from the outside world. Due to problems with my provider my internet and telephone connection had collapsed, leaving me in pure despair. What followed was the usual pattern of behaviour:

You keep refreshing the Google main page and checking your router with that little spark of hope, that it miraculously starts to work again, but no luck.
Soon you just want to curl up in a dark corner of your apartment and cry like a baby – or like a an alcoholic who just finished his last bottle of whiskey and then realizes, that all the shops are closed. I do know, that I spend the majority of my life either in bed or in front of a computer on the internet, but once my internet connection fails, I realize just how dependend I am.
Youtube, Tumblr, Facebook, Blogs... all the things that I honestly enjoy a lot, but can not access. It makes me mad! On top of that I can not work on my uni stuff properly and during that week without internet I had to prepare 3 presentations!

On a side note: The library of my university, where I have access to internet for free, is about 20 minutes away from my home, but pssshhhtt! I never said that!

I mean, the thing is: I want to enjoy my internet at home. There are some guilty pleasures which are not supposed to be let out in public. You simply can not watch a vlog by Essiebutton in your library! You have to wear your pajamas and drink a nice cup of tea with it for God's sake!
And concerning uni? Well, who does not search for an excuse to slack off a bit from time to time?
The same goes for working out: As long as I can not access my workout playlist on Youtube, there is no use trying it, right? ;)

Well, at this point I might have to admit something: I did not spend the whole week without internet. During the weekend I packed my things and dashed off to my parents' house where I could also get my presentations done. However, it is not the same.

Being without internet is like losing a friend... temporary. I had to laugh about myself, when I wanted to take the bus and realized, that I could not look up the schedule and felt completely lost. I was not even able to look up the weather report. Little things like that show me how insecure I actually am.

Nevertheless, without the internet you start to enjoy other things more. During the evenings I just lounged on my sofa watching „New Girl“ or I went to bed earlier to read a bit more than I usually do.

Frankly, the internet does not affect the way I lead my social life. I do not get together more with my friends, because the internet is down, but because I feel like it. The absence or presence of the internet rather affects the way I spend my me-time.

Maybe some people expect me to finish this text off by saying how much I enjoyed being „offline“ and that it made me realize that there are so many things which are more important. Well guys, you are horribly mistaken. Actually, I want to conclude this post by saying something completely different:

Internet, thank you for being there for me, for cheering me up and keeping me on track 24/7. I know, your life is not always easy and sometimes everyone needs a little break, because people can be very demanding. But I have one little favour :

Do.not.leave.me.alone.again.
Please.


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