Wednesday, 25 September 2013

Patience - Impatience

Patience is a virtue.

It makes life a lot easier for you, because it makes it easier to wait - no matter if it might be an event, a person or just the right moment to do something.
Personally, I've never been a patient person. As a child I used to sneak into my grandparents' bedroom to look for my christmas present. When I was invited to somewhere, I could not sleep nights before, because I was so impatient and just wanted this special moment to arrive.

Nowadays I am not worried about Christmas anymore, but I still have this inner nervousness.
Sometimes I am just impatient for something to be over:
Exams, official phone calls and meetings, a long day at work and other inconvenient happenings of life...
Other times there is this unbearable waiting for something you long for:
A trip with your friends, the weekend, a date, a kiss, holding hands for the first time...
Is it not strange how many of the things I mentioned are love related?

Of course everyone has got his own priorities, but we have at least one thing in common:
Sometimes, we have to wait.

People who are naturally patient might say:
There's nothing to worry about. My moment will come soon enough.“

People who are like me might say:
„Why can't tomorrow be today? And why can't next week be this week?“

And just like that you end up wasting a lot of your precious time by thinking only about the future and forgetting to live in the present.

Am I the only one who thinks, that this sound very cheesy?

But still, I can not deny the truth behind this phrase. Even at the moment I am so impatient for something particular to happen, that I can not focus my mind on other things.
Things I actually HAVE to do and things I might be able to instead.

Impatience is a blockade.
Patience is a virtue.

But is patience something you can learn? Something you can cultivate?

Maybe I am cursed to live my life in this fast-forward-mode, jumping from one supposedly important happening to the next one, not caring about the little things that happen in between.

Tuesday, 17 September 2013

That autumn feeling

When I woke up one morning it was suddenly autumn.
The leafs had started to turn brown and fall from the trees. It rained and even now it is raining.
The air in the early mornings is crisp and tingly on my bare cheeks.
However, when the sun comes out, everything is soaked into this rich golden sheen – like honey.

Many people start to complain, because summer is slowly fading away now.
The days are getting shorter, the nights longer.
It is harder to get out of bed in the morning. Even harder than it already is.

But I have to admit, that I love autumn.
I love snuggling up on my couch, watching old movies.
I love lying in bed, listening to the rain and I even love that feeling when you feel this instant warmth when you walk into your home after a cold and wet day.
I love wearing thick pullovers and fuzzy socks.
I love the melancholic atmosphere, giving me slight chills every now and then.

Summer, you have been very kind to us this year, but now it is time to let go.
At least for now.

Autumn, long time no see.
I was waiting for you and I can not wait to see what you have in mind for me this year.